That happen to anyone else?
I’ve been fiddling around with my Comprehensive Exam essay for far too long. I trashed it all to start from scratch. Now I think I’m just afraid of finishing, of not being an MFA student anymore, not being able to call on my teachers to tell me how to fix my problems (writing problems, that is), so I’m procrastinating. But I really do want to be done with the program. I’m tired of school, at least for now. See the conflicting feelings? So if I just keep scrapping things, I don’t have to focus and finish and deal with internal conflicts.
But my life is not all battles inside my head. Yesterday I decided to play with yarn I purchased in the spring from Noelle and see how it would work for the Loop d Loop paisley carpet bag that I’ve been admiring. Well. I love the yarn, and I love the bag, but I don’t like knitting the yarn into that particular bag. I really think the 54 paisleys that I have to make would look better in a more evenly-spun yarn. The shape gets effed up (at least to me) where the yarn changes from thick to thin. So I’m going to try it in some of the Fiesta Yarns silk that I’ve been hording for almost two years. What to do with the fantastic yarn from Noelle? Luckily, there is another bag that rocks my world: the Counterpane Purse in Handknit Holidays. I think it will look fabu in these luscious yarns.
I’m a graduate student too and I’ve found that procrastination is practically an art form. I think fear of finishing is one of my big procrastination triggers — it’s fear of the unknown, what happens next? And fear of finishing up this project that means so much to me.
On the plus side, I do get lots of really good knitting done 🙂
Daily.
Another grad student reporting in! Yep, I feel the same way! I am finishing this semester, and while I am a little nervous about comps, I am really ready to be out of school for awhile… it wears you down, you know?
Take it easy, girl!
oh my dear. don’t fear the comps. dirty little secret: the earliest i wrote a word of mine was a week before they were due. and then i turned them in a day late. with gm’s permission, but still.
and hey, if a slob like me can do that, so can you.
and trust me: even though i miss nm, turning in those comps & being one step closer to being done with the program? it’s a good thing.